Why do we bother with anything? I have, during the last 10 months, for the first time in my life tried – that is, I have made attempts to meet new people, make friends, work, be open to people and, I guess, it has been a bit of a success.  It has also been a bit of a failure. I have made some acquaintances, started to question some friendships, enjoyed myself at times and survived some thoroughly demoralising experiences.

What have I learnt from all of this? I would love to say that the good experiences outweighed the bad  experiences but, I am not sure that is true.  I learnt that people can be really mean – now, I am not a person that has led a sheltered life, but I have recently been surprised by the fact that people are mean as a way of passing time – a hobby even.  Some people play tennis, do yoga and some people toy with others – do they realise that they are mean and manipulative or do they think that their behaviour is normal.  Is this what we have become as a society – a society where “manners” are “ideals” and treating someone with respect is akin to a miracle taking place?  How has it become acceptable to abuse people? Why don’t we all matter? Seriously, what does one have to do to fit in and be loved?