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One thing that we are not taught is how to accept failure.  We are brought up to please our parents, do well at school, be kind, well-mannered and generally, to bend over backwards to appease others.

So, when you realise that the people that know you well really don’t like you, when you hear “if it wasn’t for the fact that you are my daughter and I feel an obligation,..”, you kind of wonder what it is all about.. I have managed to disappoint my family, alienate them, friends are not there, things are tough.. How do you turn things around? How do you stop being the person that your family dislikes, the person that friends “tolerate”? A way out/a change is all that I want… I move countries to try to start again and fail – it is true, you cannot escape from yourself – but your family and friends can escape from you – they are the lucky ones…